Where is the love?

I am in one of my moods. I think, personally, I have done a right fine job of covering it up. I doubt anyone realizes how sour I really am. I am irritable, & I don't know why.

Well, really, I do.

Everywhere I look, I am constantly reminded of how much I have to do. I have so many projects that I need to work on. I have so little free time! I do have a few days off this weekend, & we'll be traveling. This is good, because there will be nothing I can do about those projects.

I have a terrible addiction to a computer game called Spider Solitaire. This may not seem like a bad thing. It would be worse to be addicted to meth, or cocaine or something that takes away from not only me but those around me. Still, this addiction has taken its toll on my life. I can waste hours that I ought to be sleeping or folding clothes or cooking or dusting or mopping or cleaning the bathroom or writing fiction or writing nonfiction or ordering windows or washing curtains or paying bills or organizing my photos or buying a new camera or taking garbage to the dump or cleaning out the Grand Prix or watching a movie or cleaning out my refrigerator or cleaning out my closet or reading my Bible. I tell myself I use it to clear my head, but instead it makes me put off the real things in my life.


Right now I'm in the car & Rachel's driving. I guess this is as good a time to write as any.

So I figured if I admit I'm addicted to the game maybe I can move on. Putting this on my blog gives me a certain amount of accountability.

I have often felt like I have thrown my life away. I have made a lot of progress in my life in the last year. I have made time in my schedule for exercise & for music. I have stretched my horizons by joining the chorus & by getting a new job. That job has allowed me to buy a new car & a new computer. I am really doing well, I just need to eliminate this one big timewaster!


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When somebody dies, I clean house

I don't mean for it to be that way. It just is. I am not usually compulsive, but sometimes it just hits me.

Today a friend from college passed away. We were not close - we actually parted ways on not the best of terms - but I had still hoped he would have a happy life. Until two months ago, his life had appeared to be happy. He was the picture of health. Then, a serious, sudden infection nearly killed him, & after a long recovery process, he looked to be on the road to recovery. But this week, a new infection took his life.

His 40th birthday took place during the ordeal.

It has been hard for my friend Cindy, who knew him a lot better than I did. Her grandmother died last week. Cindy spent her 39th birthday at the funeral home.

My life is busy, as always. I'm off work today & at the salon with Derek, who just got a haircut. The dress rehearsal is tonight, the concert tomorrow. A lot going on!

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sentimental lady

Things are looking up. My mom, husband & Granddaddy are improving, slowly but surely. Today Derek had his first middle school football game. It was a jamboree so there was no "winner" or "loser" but it was cool to watch him. The only bad thing was, I was in the sun on big aluminum bleachers for several hours & I got a terrible sunburn. I am taking four prescription medications & an herbal medication. After the fact, I learned that three of those medications make me more sensitive to the sun. I felt all right until I worked out on the elliptical & I got so hot I nearly threw up. I haven't felt good since.

Tomorrow is our church homecoming. I am looking forward to singing with Rachel in public for the first time.

Right now I just want to go to bed. Later!

tryin' to get to you

I cannot update my web pages to let people know about the death of Jim Hager, who rose to fame with "Hee Haw." My host must be having problems. I really cannot say enough about my web host, iPowerWeb...this is the first time I've been unable to log on in the six years I've been using them.

Thanks to an upcoming birthday & last week's "tax-free weekend" I now own a laptop computer, which has pretty much done nothing except take up my evenings since I got it. Oh, I have wanted a laptop for a long time, in hopes of finding time to update my webpages & write more fiction. So far, I haven't done much except download my money management software & copying a few more programs that I won't be using on my old computer anymore. Vista won't let me use EVERYTHING I use to make my pages but I'm working on getting it all together again. Now I just need the host to let me get back on!

Life has been strange the last few weeks. I wrote about why I didn't have much time to blog last month. Well, I think everyone's getting better, if they're not well yet. Even the kids & I have had colds, sniffles, backaches, toothaches...& our flexible benefit card hasn't been working...talk about craziness.

I am not dealing really well with life this week. You can tell when I'm not dealing well with life because I play a lot of spider solitaire. However, I seem to be getting a little better. I actually watched both last week's & this week's "ER"s while I tried to update the webpage. I installed some programs & tried to do a few more things. Anyway, now I need to go to bed. I will write again soon.

more You Tube for everyone

More You Tube for everyone. Here are some cute kid commercials Rachel found. Enjoy.