Tomorrow's the last official day. The good thing is that the tough part is done. The grades are in and I just have a few more loose ends to tie up. Yesterday was the last day for the kids and tomorrow all they're going to do is hand out report cards. That may mean I have students coming in and out, but I don't know. I woke up at 2:35 this morning. I checked my e-mail and read the FlyLady digest. I don't remember much of what it said, but in the shower I thought to myself, "I deserve peace." FlyLady is big about encouraging her followers to say "I love myself," and I'm not arguing with that. As a Christian though, I tend to think that I don't deserve a whole lot. By that I mean that I believe I have good things by the grace of God and not anything I have done. What I thought in the shower, though, is what's in my control. I should treat myself better than to run myself ragged trying to do the impossible, or to beat myself up for things I cannot control. I don't need to beat myself up for things over which I once had control but don't anymore. (in other words, things I screwed up).
In turn, I deserve respect from others whether they are my students or my supervisors. I deserve proper treatment and I am going to start expecting it.
So I got a lot done at school today. I didn't feel really good and I had to do a lot of running around. I will be doing even more putting stuff up tomorrow and hopefully no one will want to use my computer expertise.
I got more done here than usual too. Folded clothes, washed dishes, and now I'm watching "Trauma: Life in the ER" and getting ideas for how to use these in class. I can't keep showing episodes of "House" UNLESS I find better ways to tie it into my standards. However, I have NO problem at all using TV shows, movies, etc. to teach the kids while they think they're doing something else.