Do you remember this song? I do. Does it have any significant meaning for today's post? Well, it has a significant meaning for today. I woke up early this morning, dreaming about someone from my past. And in my dream I must have been watching something that would have happened 25 plus years ago and I said, "It's all right. One day he is going to realize what he's missed out on and it's going to be too late."
And he did.
And it was.
And now I have these dreams from time to time and sometimes they worry me because back in the day I would dream about him two nights in a row and find out that something had happened, like his grandmother died, and there was something else, but I don't remember what. Maybe when his aunt died, I don't know. I didn't have a premonition about his mother, I can tell you that. Well, I did in a way... a few months before she died I dreamed about him and wondered. Nothing specific though.
I am still working on improvements (cleaning, specifically) and starting tomorrow (it's a holiday weekend) I'll go back to working on something for school every day, or every weekday at least. I'm trying to do healthy things for myself too and I'm learning about herbs again. I've been thinking about this for awhile, and I have toyed with the idea for a long time, but yesterday I was talking with my mom about... of all things, medical marijuana. Now, we didn't get into the whole, "This could be good for you," thing. Nothing that deep, of course; it was more speculation on whether someone we know from a state where medicinal use is legal has a prescription. She says no but this person is using it illegally. I said maybe he or she is, maybe he or she is not, but if this person is using it, he/she very likely has an rx. Mom didn't think this person had the financial resources to get a prescription. It was at that point I stopped arguing with her because... well, there comes a point in family arguments/discussions where tensions and voices are raised and motives are questioned (and you really do not want to know what motives have been questioned in the past). We had not come to that point yet and I didn't think it was worth going there. And somehow my thought process came around to what would I do if I couldn't teach anymore... I guess because the subject of our discussion is unemployed. I thought, nuc med jobs are scarce everywhere, and if for some reason I couldn't teach, I'd want to move somewhere like Arizona and become a midwife or an herbalist or something like that. I think another thought on my mind was what someone like Mom would do. I don't know what she is going to do now. I don't know how long she can keep her disability, her insurance, and all of that. And how many people are out there who don't have insurance? Who don't have treatments for diseases like cancer? There's a lot to think about.
So is that what I need to do? I don't think so. I think teaching is the thing for me right now. Someday it may not be, and when that happens, at least I know there are options out there.